last month i said it was getting easy. it is still relatively easy, but the main issue now is continuing on a strict path even when it's easier to cheat. this time is when will-power and the momentum you gained in the previous months HAS to kick in or you could fall off the wagon.
i am working extra hard to stay on the path. our family is experimenting with our favorite recipes and making them HEALTHY. we have added quinoa to our diets and the kids are eliminating desserts 5 days a week.
now, to my body. month one and two looked like my regular body shrinking. month three brings my regular body...sagging. i have found it very difficult to work so hard and finally feel like i might have the body i always dreamed of, only to find out it's a saggy baggy mess. this is psychologically hard to deal with. it makes me feel that no matter what i do i can never be 'normal'.
for now, i am trying not to think about it too much. i am focusing on how good i feel, my health benefits, the smaller sizes i am wearing. we can deal with the saggy body later.
this month my sleep apnea went away. reports came from the children and the spouse that i no longer snore and that they don't hear sleep interruption anymore. this. is. amazing. and exciting.
good things ahead.
WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 82.5 lbs.
CLOTHING SIZE CHANGE: from 28W to XL/XXL
Ugh. I was looking at myself after my shower today and noticing that I now have stretch marks on my arms and calfs, places they never were before. And so now when I finally decide to lose weight, I'll be saggy too. Ugh. But man, 82 pounds! Yowza!
ReplyDeleteThere are surgeries that can remove the skin. But no matter what, you will be healthier and happier. Appearance is so hard for women. I hope you can overcome this and be happy with yourself.
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