Half Way, Baby!

This week I hit my half way mark as far as recommended weight loss.

90 pounds.

Here's the thing.  When you have 180 pounds to lose, each weight loss step is a good and bad.  You feel so proud that you have lost 30 pounds! You're amazing! And then you realize you have 150 pounds to go and you feel overwhelmed.  All of the sudden your 30 pounds is no big deal.

Reaching half way means that everything from here on out is less than I have already lost.  I feel amazing and like I CAN DO THIS!  I can do this.

monthly update: 3

it's been a month since i updated this blog, but my computer broke and i had to replace the hard drive.

last month i said it was getting easy.  it is still relatively easy, but the main issue now is continuing on a strict path even when it's easier to cheat.  this time is when will-power and the momentum you gained in the previous months HAS to kick in or you could fall off the wagon.

i am working extra hard to stay on the path.  our family is experimenting with our favorite recipes and making them HEALTHY.  we have added quinoa to our diets and the kids are eliminating desserts 5 days a week.

now, to my body.  month one and two looked like my regular body shrinking.  month three brings my regular body...sagging.  i have found it very difficult to work so hard and finally feel like i might have the body i always dreamed of, only to find out it's a saggy baggy mess.  this is psychologically hard to deal with.  it makes me feel that no matter what i do i can never be 'normal'.

for now, i am trying not to think about it too much. i am focusing on how good i feel, my health benefits, the smaller sizes i am wearing.  we can deal with the saggy body later.

this month my sleep apnea went away.  reports came from the children and the spouse that i no longer snore and that they don't hear sleep interruption anymore.  this. is. amazing. and exciting.

good things ahead.

WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 82.5 lbs.
CLOTHING SIZE CHANGE: from 28W to XL/XXL

TOO BIG

this week i went to old navy for back to school shopping for the kids.  while there i spotted the cutest cardigan.  i decided to try it on just for fun. 

i grabbed an XXL and put it on in front of a mirror in the store.  it was TOO BIG.  i almost cried right there in the store.  the XL was a bit too small, but i will buy it anyway and in a month or two when fall is here i will wear it and feel beautiful.

amazing.