6.06.2012

plateau no. 1

this week i hit my first plateau.
and it sucked.

a full week and not one pound lost.
not one.
how is this possible?
i used to eat and entire large pepperoni pizza on my own
and now i am eating less than 500 calories each day and
i lost nothing? nothing?

i held out all week, telling myself it would be fine
and not to worry about it,
but yesterday i cried.
it's hard to go through this much work,
emotionally and physically,
and not see the number on the scale drop.

my mind is filled with awful thoughts:
- what if this is it? i lose nothing more than this first 40 pounds?
- what if I fail at this?
- what if I stay fat forever?

WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 40 LBS...still.

2 comments:

  1. UGH UGH UGH UGH UGH. It just doesn't make sense! I feel for you, Betty.

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  2. Plateaus suck, but they do pass. Sometimes your body needs an adjustment period to handle all the changes and then you start dropping again. I know for me, any tiny little carb stops the whole process. It is really frustrating but my little body does not like them even though my mouth does.

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