Regret

3:23 AM
Laying in bed with incisions stinging.
Stomach hurting.
And all I can think about is a Domino's pepperoni pizza with extra cheese.
I can imagine exactly how it tastes. 
How good it would feel to eat pizza right now.
And I freak out.
Why did I do this to myself?!
By choice?!!
I chose this and I hate it!
Then I fell asleep crying.