For the Record

- I started really gaining weight as a child when things at home got very difficult.  I learned to use food as a coping agent. However, I am now an adult and have no excuse for letting that emotional eating continue.

- I am not 'big boned'...I'm just seriously fat.

- I do NOT believe obesity is a 'disease'.

- I believe the only fix for obesity is eating healthy and exercising.

- I do NOT think that what I weigh is okay or acceptable. I feel I am abusing the gift of a potentially healthy body given to me by God.

- I am not healthy. It would be literally impossible for me to be healthy at this weight. Impossible. Even if I were running marathons weekly (which.......c'mon), carrying around this much excess weight is a strain on my body and heart.

- I think being fat is a poor choice I am making. No excuses.

But, having said that, I want my children to always feel worthy of love and happiness no matter their size.  Maybe at some point they will struggle with their weight (don't most women?) and I want to make absolutely certain that they know they are beautiful and worthy no matter what.  But I will be devastated if they struggle with weight the way I have my entire life.